I’m numb to the public eye

when truly all I want to do is cry

I shut the blinds I call my eyes

because I’d rather have them filled with lies

Then have to put on a better disguise

I want to sob and scream out loud

but I’m uncertain if that’s allowed

I don’t want to be a problem that needs fixing

but the life I’m living is too damn restricting

I need to let it out

without a doubt

but in the meantime I’ll keep it all in

the cycle I named numbness 

once again

begins.